I lost my husband, Wes, to a self inflicted gun shot wound on Sunday Nov 8th, 2009. We have 3 children - they are 9, 7, and 5 years old. I am living in MD with my grandparents because I have been on medical leave for over a year and can't afford to live on my own. Wes was living with friends in IN. We have been seperated. He just came out in Sept. to visit. My profile picture is from that visit,…