I put my husband's picture up for for my avatar or whatever it is called and whenever I get on this site I stare at it and I can't believe this is real! I'm on a site for widows! And my husband is dead! And there he is in the corner next to my name, holding a pair of mitts I gave him for Christmas! And this can't really be happening! Whenever I feel I need to tell him something, I reach for the p…