I am having a down day today... I just miss my Shawn a lot...monday will be a year and a half since he left me... I think its just so rough bc I am looking these kids- now almost 4 and almost 3...and they are so different then when he left.. and i know he wouldnt recognize them... i think another major problem with me coping is the fact that i am physically able to move on and he isnt. Its not li…