I lost my husband of 20 years on November 30th, 2018.  He was only 50 years old when he passed. He had an infecrion in his gall bladder so they removed it and the next day his liver stopped working. He lingered for 12 days before passing. I miss him so much and I keep asking him to come and get me. I know he can't, and don't take that as me wanting to harm myself, I just can't bear to think of an…