Take this for what you all will but with regards to the saying "tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all" it is in my opinion a crock, and I'm only speaking for myself.   If I could I would erase, delete, brainwash all of the good memories (which was the last 39 years)  and breathe until my last breath without the sharp, stabbing, painful, searing memories so that I will…