I had a dream last night.  Now I have cried most of the day.  While I was dreaming I felt happy again.  My husband had been found and he hadn't died after all. My heart soared.  All of our love was even more intense.  It felt so real, even though I knew it was a dream, I never wanted to wake up for it to end. I just kept falling back to sleep on purpose to continue the happiness.  However when I…