Angelina My heart goes out to you. Losing your mother is devastating My mother passed 2 years ago and it still feels like yesterday. I know what you are experiencing. I too took care of my mom, maybe not as long as you did but I do know what you are going through. My mother had cancer so it was tests, doctors and radiation. Then she passed and I was lost in less than a years time I am now taking care of my husband who has cancer so it is tests, doctors and chemo.
When my mom was alive I would ask God for time for myself and now I say be careful for what you ask God for because you just may get it. Zap they are gone and you don't know what to do with yourself because you never had the time for yourself. I wish I could wave a magic wand to take away your pain and feeling of loneliness but all I can offer is I know what you feel and it is real. Keep your mom forever in your heart and she will always be near you. May God bless you now and in the days to come.