i dont think i can live with this saddness in my heart im broken my heart hurts so bad for my mom i wish i could of died with her god help me nothing seems to matter any more im lost without my mom i cry all day my kids are 4 and 6 they really dont understand what happened i miss my mom so much and im not ok i wont ever be ok till i see her again
Yesterday I had such an overwhelming feeling of sadness for the loss of my father, who died 21 yrs ago. I can't believe it's been that long and yet some days, it feels like yesterday. When he died, in my house, on Hospice, I was sure that I couldn't live without him. I had never felt so much pain, he was my daddy, I just wanted him to stay a little longer. I know that God knows what was best for him but I did not want him to leave me. I was always a daddy's girl, even though we lived apart since I was twelve due to divorce. He was still my daddy. There are days still when I have to just cry to relieve the heaviness of heart that I feel. But I keep him alive in memories and telling my children about him, in many different ways. Oh, what would I give for just one more look from him, he had such expressive eyes, like his mother....they could tell you everything they were feeling with a look. I will never forget the love that shown from his eyes near the end. I can only hope he felt the love I have for him. I miss him still.
Thank you Anita! I often feel she is just "Away" somewhere! But I know better! She was sick and had a massive stroke so I thank God that she is at peace! But I will miss her so much during these holidays--I look every day at a sweet picture of her and weep! Sometimes her "spirit" is with me. I can only hope that will carry on with me! Happy Turkey Day Anita!