I don't even know where to start. I guess I will start with Tom. I met Tom when I was 28. He was wonderful. He was tall dark and handsome. He was such a hard worker and so devoted to me and our kids. I had one boy from a previous marriage. Tom was a devoted step father, my son adored him.Together we had two more children. Nine years after we were married Tom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Six months after his diagnosis he passed away. Here I was 40 years old with three kids all…