Anthony.......I'm sorry for your loss that brought you to us but glad that you found us. This site has been a lifesaver for me, to talk with people who truly understand has made a difference in my journey. I'm glad you joined the Bereaved Spouses group. If you post on that wall, you'll be part of our conversations. I lost my husband just over 2 years ago which may sound like a long time, but in my mind it just happened. We all really know the grief you're feeling so I hope you'll let us help you.