I recently lost my 22 month old child also due to a drowning july 5,2009. It has been the most hardest time of my life. I also felt like a large piece of me died along with my angel. I spent countless nights reliving the events of that day. When I saw him at the bottom of the pool my I had no reaction, it was like an out-of-body experience for me. I was so shocked the only thing I could do was get on my knees and pray. I love him with all my heart and being that he was so young, and that he was my first child I felt like I should've been there to protect him.....but I couldn't. I play those images in my head all the time, even the good times makes me cry! It's like one day we're one big happy family, and the next day my house is in complete silence. I am 22 years old and it's kind of tough thinking about how I going to have to deal with a wound so fresh, and so deep for the rest of my life. I am currently on my second little boy (6mo preg as of now), and Im terrified. I really need a support group or someone to talk to personally who has been where I am now, to reach out..........the pain is unbearable at times.