I unexpectedly lost my father Michael Ventura on January 4,2010, three days before my 22nd birthday. He passed away at the young age of 52. I miss him dearly, sometimes I do not know how to think or how to cope with his passing, but I tend to keep my feelings reserved instead of confiding in someone. So maybe confiding in those I do not know, will be a lot easier. My father and I were very close, I am the youngest of three. It is so hard, so I can not write anymore.