So sorry for you- My mom passed 2 yrs ago on may.26- she had lymphoma cancer for 20 yrs- my sister and I took care of her in hospice the last few weeks- I thought I was going to die- we were best friends- after she died my sisters and I fought for many months(I still have not spoken to one sister ) time does heal a bit -just remember it will get better trust me - I cried so much that I thought I had run out of tears- but after I realized she is not suffering anymore- I started working as much as I could and kept busy - that helped my mind- after talking to friends that had lost their moms a well - I seemed to be connected to them in a way- Don't fret about your dad or sibling drama- stay strong I am sure that would be the way your mom would have wanted you to be- wishing you strength, faith and memories to help you through this time-
Autumn I know how you feel! Here's my story!! My dad has had his issues!! We didn't speak for a good while when he and mom divorced due to infidelity but when his father MY WONDERFUL GRANDPA became ill I chose to forgive and move on! I never really got along with his girlfriend but dad and I chose not to let this come between us nor I them! We spoke every day sometimes 3x a day! He was such a good dad man grandpa great grandpa and always helped if needed! He was struggling with some issues that arose in our lives and became a little sad weekend before he passed! I called him the night before he died and his girlfriend said he was complaining of gut pain asked to put him on phone begged him to go to hospital call 911 or my uncle and I would do whatever he asked! He said No ill be OK LOVE u handed her the phone she tells me don't worry I gave him something to help him relax and I will stay with him next to his side make sure he's OK!! I hung up phone with the most uneasy feeling but didn't know if I should overstep my grounds so didn't! To get a call next Morning that he was GONE! I feel guilty Evey day that I didn't over step her or his No what if I would've followed my feeling he may be here TODAY!! I feel so guilty eating sleeping going to stores basically living when all the while I can here his voice saying continue to be the child I raised and am proud of! Death is death and hurts people left behind to the core but when it's unexpected and then strife within the family that much harder! Seek GOD is all I can do and pray as you are now added to my prayer list! GOD BLESS ALL WHO ARE GRIEVING AND HOPE WE ALL FINE EVEN IF A LITTLE SOME PEACE!!