My heart really goes out to you. Losing someone you love, is not something you can just wake up the next day and be okay about. No, you need time to heal. While you're healing, I want to bring you comfort. Main comfort, I have to share is that you will see your love one again. Whether, you are unfamiliar with the Bible or know about it, it offers promises to mankind that many people are not aware of. If you have your Bible, You'll see at Isaiah 26:19 states that "Thy dead shall live... and the earth shall cast forth the dead." How can we know that it would be right here on earth? Acts 24:15 states "there shall be a resurrection of the dead, both of the just and the unjust." Seeing that unjust ones will be resurrected, this can't be taking place in heaven. Lastly Barbara, I want you to know that this is not God's plan; for us to die and just be resurrected. He views it as an enemy and soon will do away with it. 1 Cor. 15:26 states " The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death." I hope to hear from you soon. Thank you for reading.
Sorry for your loss of your fiancé, yes it sure does turn your world upside down. I lost my Wife January 29th coming up on a year soon. I went to a class on spousal loss, the instructor asked how we felt. I told him I felt like my life was a puzzle that was put together, beautiful picture, relaxing and peaceful. With the death of my wife I felt like the puzzle was knocked on the floor, pieces missing, made no sense and no matter how hard I tried couldn't put it back together again. Your still in raw grief I know there isn't anything I can say to make you feel better. What worked for me at early stage that you are at was to post on here, try to get out. Go out to eat with friend, whatever it takes to get you out of the house every once in a while. I found I couldn't look too far ahead, if I did I would just slip into depression. Went day to day sometimes half a day now can look to what I want to do this summer. This site made a world of difference for me post on here whatever you are feeling, nobody will ever past judgment on you. We are all going through similar things, it just feels good to hear your not going crazy. It's true people who haven't gone through this don't have a clue what you are going through.