Wow, I did not at all think that anyone would care to read, let alone respond to, my post. I don't have anyone (other than the Lord) I can talk to to help me get through this experience. I truly cannot tell you how much your responses mean to me. I know that God will never leave my side, but knowing that there are people who I've never met that cared enough to respond to my brokenness gives me additional hope. The range and intensity of emotions I continue to feel since my father's passing on October 24, 2018 makes me wonder if this will ever get any easier.
Barbara,continuation ,still trying to navigate .I get cut off and have to start again.What I was going to add was that I go to Bereavement group and I'm unable to speak of my feelings,so through this site,it makes it easier.Family doesn't want to hear of my grief,they don't know what to say.
Barbara,Thank you also for your suggestion about the group I was asking about,I was able to figure it out after awhile and so I created it under"Words to our Loved ones",your welcome to join,unless like you said you do that on FB,I don't have FB,not familiar with it.So here I am able to have somewhat of a relief/release of my thoughts.
8 years without your son. Birthdays and Anniversaries are hard. You are an inspiration. So true yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not promised. Live for today. I hope the memories and the love you shared with your son got you through. That's all we have now. Going into my 9th year without Brittney; my only child. Still so hard to believe. Please continue to post. You inspire me to go on. Thank you.
I am truly sorry to hear of your losses. I was unable to reply Friday. I am glad you have been on this site and are comfortable with it. I will be sporadic on when I log on here. I am at work/lunch now and have a few minutes just now. I really appreciate your reaching out to me. You must be a very strong woman; I know you must grieve everyday yet must find a way to continue life. Warm regards back to you and hopefully I will be able to get into a habit of visiting this site for strength and support.
Thanks Barbara, yes I am still on the PC myself.. you would think I had enough after this week, lol.
The opiate overdose epidemic is completely out of control and so sad:( David had several physical ailments as well. COPD, Diabetes and Cardio Vascular disease.
The week before he passed away, he was diagnosed with Diabetes. He was prescribed Suboxone just 3 days prior to his death for chronic back pain. This medication is an Opiate agonist that is prescribed to individuals that are withdrawing from Heroin but can also be prescribed for chronic pain as its not suppose to be addictive like other Opiates are. When I found him the first thing I had thought of was a possible accidental overdose, however, the medical examiner claims it was natural causes, even after we requested a toxicology be performed. I just wanted some sort of closure and understanding. I am fairly certain it was the COPD but if the medication assisted in anyway, I guess I will never know.
I believe I had read that you had lost your son? I cannot even imagine how devastating that would be and I am so sorry for your loss! One of my biggest supporters through all of this lost her son 2 years ago on Oct 23rd. He was 24.
Since moving back home in 2010, its been rough to say the least. I lost my mom in 2011, A great friend since the early 90's in 2013, his partner in 2015 and now mine.
Here is hoping that 2018 will be much better for all of us:)
Again, I am very sorry for your loss and would love to hear about him:)
It's somewhat ironic because we moved in together over Labor Day weekend in 2011.
I have been working remotely from home now for almost 4 years and because I am a very social person, the isolation has been rough but bearable while David was here. Now.. I am not sure how long I will be able to stay with this job without going back to an office. I actually look forward to the many conference calls I have just to be able to talk to someone:)
I have several friends that want for me to consider moving back to KC for a fresh start. We will see, I know that right now, I am not ready to make any major changes but who knows what the future will bring for me.
Well, hopefully I have not been too long winded:) It was great hearing from you again and hope that all is well with you. Hope to chat again soon.