It hurts all the time... that day is on repeat in my head but I try to push it to the back of my brain that's the only way I make it through the day and put on this front that everybody wants to see. Certain things throughout the day bring it all flooding back like if I see an ambulance with its lights on or driving down your street.... I'm just as lost as you are. I don't know how to feel better or even ok. I've tried everything but nothing helps... I just wish I could have my baby back :(

you can always try to block it but you will always be thinking of her.. it will get easier, but the emptiness never goes away.. i think of mama everyday and the pain gets easier to deal with the more time passes but i also think that if i dont think of her i will forget her or something.. love you momma

just thinking of you guys.. i hope lily sees all the rest of her family and they love her as we all did... shes an angel... hope everyone is making it alright.. i think of yo brian and maddie.. and lil kelsey too