I just wanted you to know I'm sorry for your loss and also to let you know I'm sorry for the unanswered questions you have. I too have some questions that will never be answered and that for me is hard to live with too. Just know there are others here that are here for you and understand.
Betty I just want to know I am thinking about you this journey is one of the hardest things that we can go through but know you are not alone. We here are here for you. I miss my son smiles and hugs too
It seems a million years since I have heard my son's voice, but I see his beautiful face every time I close my eyes. It is so hard to sleep at night. It has now been 6 months since I lost my Baby. It has not gotten any easier. I would give any thing to hear him say "Hey, Mom! Do you know how much I love you?" and feel his arms squeeze me again. He was truly my first love, and they say you never get over your first love. When the nurse laid him in my arms, I found my heart. Now, my heart is gone.
Mother's Day was the 2nd one I spent without my son, he passed way 4/26/09 at the age of 36. For some reason this day was harder for me than the anniversary of his death. I was in a card stor to buy a card for my mother-in-law & saw a card from a son for his mother & had to leave because it brought tears to my eyes. I am surviving but do feel hollow inside. I have a daughter & 2 lovely grandchildren but that cannot make up for the void of loosing my son. Someone told me I joined the club that no one wants to join - so true - so many of us yet we feel so alone! I know Wes is watching over us & want to believe he is in a "better place". Sonetimes its hard for me to believe hes gone, still think the phone ringing will be him. I can tell you it does ease up a bit, you will have more peaceful times in between the tears.
Today was the first Mother's Day I have had to endure since I lost my son, David. He was my first child. I have cried all day and wanted to tell people that said Happy Mother's Day to me to please shut up. There was nothing happy about it. I love my daughter with all my heart and don't want to ever face with her what I have endured losing my son. My life as human would be over if something happened to her too. My family has called me all day telling me they are thinking about me and I can hear it in their voices that they are relieved it's not their child who is gone. I'm glad it's not their babies too. I just want my son back and that will never happen.
Hi Betty thanks for writing. I wish my son had been married perhaps it would have made him happier. And if I had tried to make him happier and let him know how much I loved him and see him more often I would feel more peaceful. Young lives need to be lived and we need to get into their heads and help them. carrie L
Hi Betty thanks for writing. We all are in this sad boat together. I cannot think of anything else. Just wish we could go back and help them and help ourselves. the sadness is overwhelming. so much left to live and now it is without. sons are the neatest thing on earth we are lucky we had them carrie l
Dear Betty your story made me cry. My last memory was our skiing trip at christmas. I wish I had jumped in the back seatand loved on him. He was such a bright life and spirit. You and I share a loss that will never be replaced. I wish for him to be a baby again. To do it all over again. I am sorry... Carrie L
I know how you feel and I can say that. I lost my 18 year old son, Chad, on 9/4/09. The car he and his girlfriend were riding in rolled over. She survived. My last image of my son is as you described. I only want Chad back. He was part of my heartbeat. We loved and respected each other. His beautiful smile and laugh were constantly cheering others up. His dad and our son, Travis, and daughters, Holly and Hannah just want him back. But no relationship was more deep, or more special, then the one he and I shared together.
Each day is a day I don't want to face without Chad. Maybe we can all draw strength from each other.
God Bless you.