Hi Billie. I lost my Brother on the 17th of june, 2010. He had turned 40 on the 3rd of January, 2010. He was my absolute best friend in the world and I know exactly how you feel. I just finished sobbing while I was looking at his facebook page. His name is Jake Wendling, and my name is Lance Wendling. Seeing his face, remembering him, thinking of all the things I should have said or done, all the chances I had to pick up the phone and call him... so many regrets. Like I said, I know exactly how you feel, and I do not know if I'll ever be able to get past this. I want to tell you that I'm sorry for the loss of your sister, and for your aching heart.