You are very brave for sharing your story with others to help. And no doubt it is a type of therapy to you as well! How long did you have to get treatment? Are you still struggling today? I have personally never had strong feeling like that but I know ones close to me have. It breaks my heart and I am the one who wants to fix things and make them happy. I have gone through depression though. I think it has been mild, but even that form is so deep and powerful, I can't imagine dealing with the thought that you don't belong anymore either. I am so glad that you have allowed God to help you endure. It's not easy throwing your burdens on Him. But like you said He is always there and I love the scripture that says He tells us not to be afraid for He is holding onto your right hand in Isaiah 41:10. I love that scripture so much.