Camille, I am so sorry for your loss.  There are no words to describe the pain we experience over the loss of our soul mates.  I just hit my one year mark and I cannot believe all this time has past.  You are young within your grieving but for me it seems the roller coaster never ends. You have come to a great site,  you will see we are all grieving, and we are all in different stages of grief.  There are no timeframes in which you need to follow and nothing is written in stone telling you it is time to do anything.  

I had to retire to take care of my husband, and I retired with no regrets but I did have too much time on my hands and became depressed.  So stay busy, come here often even if it is to read posts.  Sending many hugs, Jane P.