"It's not easy!!! I'm still in the process of getting to where I want to get. Instead of spending more time on myself, healing, I volunteered to help take care of my father. He died 12/24/17 and in October, 2018, his estate was settled. So,…"
"April, I see your post is from last August, but I'm just wondering how you're doing? Did you find help for the PTSD? In some ways, it's a beautiful thing the last person she wanted to talk to, to be with, was you. Her being able to…"
"I'm replying to the 4 messages above, too. Hi. My name is Care and I'm not very excited to be coming up to my 10 year remembrance of the date my beloved of 35 years died. I must admit, it took me several years to get through the worst of…"
Thank you for asking, Care. It will be two years this weekend and I am doing better bust still have crying jags. Songs, movies, almost anything sad will set me off. As you said, we never do get over the loss. I would now like to meet someone and hope that can happen. How are you doing now?
Thank you for the kind words. I can't imagine ever having another partner. This grief is beyond anything I have ever experienced before. Not even when my dad passed. I was his 'little girl.' Judy and I loved to travel and yes I hope to go and do as we always did. Some how I don't see it being as enjoyable as it otherwise would have been. Somehow, you making it without your partner after so long together, lets me know there is hope. Thanks again.
I am the Mary that just lost my love. It was so sudden i can't believe she's gone. I have never been alone. We worked together all our life. People probably thought the amount of time we spent together was crazy but we were so in love we didn't want to be apart. Something just clicked between us. She would do anything for me no questions asked and likewise so would I. I can't explain our love it was so special.
Hi Care, just wanted to thank you for your comments about Sharon. I loss Sharon 7 wks. ago and it feels like a lifetime. No motivation or interest, and no purpose. You stated you lost BJ 4 yrs. ago. What kinds of things did you do to help you along. Not that you ever fully recover but was there anything that helped with the process of healing. Anything that gave you the motivation to start living your life instead of just existing. Right now I feel paralyzed and that I am just existing. Any suggestions. Thank you again, Geri
I'll keep trying to remember the great times we had together traveling the world. Not easy to do, but I'll have to work on it. It's been two days of stomach wrenching pain. The sooner I straighten up, the better. Carl
I wanted to thank you for replying to my post. I wouldn't end my life because Homer is gone but I don't have much of an interest in life right now. I go through the motions of day to day living and that's about it.
I am so sorry about your partner passing. You were together even longer than Homer and myself. Our families never really accepted us either except for Homer's mother. She seemed to really like me. I don't think the rest of our familes realized how much Homer and me were devoted to each other until he passed. I will say my family has been good to me since he passed and so has one of his sisters.It's a shame it took his passing for them to realize how much Homer and I loved one another and what a good person he was.I don't think that any couples straight or gay stay togethe as long as he and I did or as long as you and your partner did without loving each other.
Everyone tells me that I should be thankful for the years we had together and that most people gay or straight never find the love that Homer and I had. I am thankful for the time we we had together but that doesn't mean that I don't miss him like crazy right now.
I am here for you Care whenever you want to reach out.