March 7, 2011 my nightmare started.  My son, Tom was found dead by his own hand that morning.  Life has NEVER been the same since.  My heart still grieves, I am still waiting for that regular phone call from him - At times its still not real - that he is GONE.  He left years worth of detailed journals, which totally surprised me.  Many of the stories recorded I knew about, but I never had the details then. He hid his depression, hurts and sorrows with ANGER the past 11 years. We had a good…

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Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.

No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.

How can I stay here and live each day a lie,

When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?

I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.

I plead with you now mom, let me go instead?

I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,

Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.

Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me… Continue