"Ladies....and sirs too.....I am not the person I once was. Nothing can bring her back. Broken hearts heal,mine is shattered way beyond repair. My dear Marshall was my reason for living. Everyday brings me closer to being with him. I pray every night…"
"Susan,Anthony,Marsha, I too am living alone for the first time. My step daughter...who doesn't like the word "step" bless her, is 7 miles away. Thank goodness I have my little puppy Victoria Rose. She knows when I'm…"
"Today is four months since my husband passed. I don't look forward to tomorrow, I hate today, I live in the past. This is not living, just existing. I'm on another site too and we are all so broken. I don't believe that God wants his…"
"The surgeon was surprised at how much fluid that she drained from the site where the non cancerous lymph nodes were! She packed it and said it will really drain a lot for next three days,so stay home. She called in home health care to dress it till…"
"I agree with Mary Jane...we did have the time of your lives! Yesterday didn't really hit me as the spot where the lymph nodes were removed got infected. Red,hard, hot and swollen. Called the Dr and was prescribed 500 mg ciprofloxacin for…"
"Dear Mark, Mary Jane....there is a grief recovery program at a local funeral home that's a ten week course and religious in nature. I went to the first one and will go to the third one tomorrow night. Missed the second as that was the day of my…"
"Had a call from the surgeon today,pathology report came in. I was told that the cancer was aggressive and they were right. On Dec. 28 it was 2.9 centimeters. On Jan.30 it was 3.3 centimeters but the margins were all good which meant it hasn't…"
"Hello everyone......had my breast cancer surgery yesterday....removed tumor and three lymph nodes. The pet scan and other tests did not show any cancer anywhere else but since I'm refusing chemo she took the three nodes to test and make…"
"Well, surgery will be Monday Jan.29. In having a lumpectomy without chemo. . I'm still pondering radiation. The Dr. Was a bit upset cause she said this is "curable" if I do chemo and radiation. . It's stage 2 triple…"
"Mary Jane, how very fortunate you are! Even if we never have an experience like you have had we should all be encouraged that we will be with our loved ones in heaven! Your experience gave me some peace! Thank you so much for sharing! I…"
"Oh David...you are so right in saying that it would be a godsend to see our loved ones as Mary Jane did! I would give anything in the world just to know they are ok and waiting for us. It would make our having to wait so very much easier....if…"
"Dear Steve, thank you so much for posting this song. It made me cry but that's ok. It's been two months and this raw grief is so hard to b are. The 19 th of this month I will find out when I'm having breast surgery.…"
"Mary Jane that was beautiful and I guess I'm some kind of nut too....it's lightly snowing here and I just grabbed a shawl and went outside and listened and said a prayer for my Marshall and for everyone of us to be able to find some kind…"
"Mary Jane I too checked out that Facebook sight and it felt impersonal. I won't be going back to it. Took my car in for a tune up. He's a good mechanic and knew my husband so I won't get ripped off. If it's done too late tonight…"
"Well dear friends...one more test out of the way. The mri took 20 minutes. I had never had one before so on the 28 th I have the last test pet scan. So what I need to do it take a deep breath. It seems like the closer it gets to the end of the year…"
Oh Chris, Please don't do this. Even I believe there has to be something better for us. I see myself in your heartache. sometimes I am so helpless in my own world of hurt I think that I can't possibly be of help to anyone else. But I have to; it is the mandate of every caring human being. Please wait this out a little longer. My baby sisters name was Chris. I raised her from infancy as our father was physically abusive and beat up my mother and us every night. She too did not see any reason to continue and so did not take care of herself. She died more than 2 years ago, leaving huge holes in all of our hearts. It was a tragic unfinished life that I do not want to see in my commitment as a friend to you. She was only 53. Please wait it out a little longer. maybe we will both look back on this and know what the purpose of our suffering was. I couldn't go to bed tonight knowing of your unbearable pain and not try to comfort you. Let me be your bridge over troubled waters.
Love and Hugs,
I read your message. It broke my heart as I am in the same place. I'm 67 and don't feel I have 2 minutes more, let alone years. My well-meaning family and friends have said all the words that, for all practical purposes, feel like just more crap. It might be OK, and even normal to be cynical in this stage of our grief - after all, how can anyone understand.?
I have pills too, and even a stash, but not for a plan to end my life; I believe that it will come naturally of a broken heart. Still, I want you to hang on. Like what a therapist asked me many years ago " Don't you want to at least see how this (my life) all plays out?" I didn't have an answer, I couldn't have - the now was too critical for any kind of reflection, any luxury of time that everyone else seemed to have. Be my friend in this, Christine; we will try together. OK?