Corey...I see your post in the young widows group. First, let me say how sorry I am that you and your kids have suffered this loss. I think you would be better off joining the Bereaved Spouses group. The last post in Young Widows was in April 2015 so I doubt you'll get much support there. I belong to Bereaved Spouses and without the people I've met in this group, I don't know where I'd be today. I lost my husband just about a year ago. He was 52 years old and we were together for almost 30 years.
Although prayer and having faith in God and faith that you will see your husband again someday is helpful, it does not take the pain away or make anything any easier. If you're getting advice from people who have not lost a spouse, then they have NO idea what they're talking about. This is a pain that cannot be described to or understood by anyone not walking in these shoes. This is why the Bereaved Spouses group has help me tremendously. I'm not as young as you but I'm still fairly young to be a widow and therefore none of my friends or family have been through this so there was no one for me to talk to until I found this site. I hope you'll find some comfort here, at least to know what you think and feel is normal no matter how crazy you may think it is.
Welcome to the group no one wants to be a member of. I have been a member since my wife Rose passed in 2010. The members of this group have helped me deal with my grief better than anything or anyone else. Feel free to comment and vent. Everyone here is going through what you are going through. Everyone is supportive and kind. This is going to be a tough time for you and do not let anyone tell you to snap out of it, shake it off or get over it. You need to go through and feel this, as painful as it is. You lost the love of your life and that is not easy. It will get better with time but for now it is going to hurt a lot. Know that here you get unconditional support!