I hope you know that what your feeling is perfectly normal. It is common to be angry. Your wife has ended her pain but in doing so created a whole world of pain for your and your children. I like to believe that our loved ones were not of their right mind. That they were simply broken. I hope you can find some peace and can hopefully forgive her. I dont think it was the easy way out but rather for them the only way out. A broken mind, a tortured soul cant see past there own pain. Im so sorry you have reason to be here.
im really sorry to hear about your wife. i under my mom killed herself and she was and is my bestfriend and i miss her everyday all day! im angry and confused also she left me and i still need her so much she never going to be able to tellme im the most beautiful bride in the world or hold my babies. im extremely sorry for your kids i understand there pain! i just try and remember that my mom doesnt have to lie in this sorry world any more and shes finally at peace. i just wish she would have known she didnt end her pain she gae it to me. please keep in touch!