Deb, I just noticed this post from last year & see that you will be having another birthday on Saturday. I'm so sorry that it is connected in such a painful way to your husband's passing. I hope that you have found a way to reconcile the feelings of loss. I feel the same way. My husband was a healthy 38 yr. old who died because of someone's neglect on the job, in an "accident." Our lives were full of hope & plans for our future together. He graduated from the university just 1 month before, had accepted a promotion & was enrolled for his Masters in Business at the University  when he was killed August 27, 2010. Life was GREAT! Now I exist as 1/2  of what I was and hope & plans are just memories now. I am believing that this is God's plan & that in time things will change/improve. Wherever you are on your walk, I wish you well and hope your year is filled with peace, love and purpose.

Hi Deb, I'm catching up on posts I haven't been here in the past several days, and I read the one you wrote about singing "solo"- I love that! You sharing those memories with the girls is wonderful! I love those moments also. The other night I shared dinner with my son & daughter, both in thier 20s , and we were enjoying it so much we kept saying "Mmmmm" & when we got through eating I was beginning to miss Larry (he loved a good meal)! I told told my kids I was sorry & I know they are probably tired of me feeling this way, but the both said "No, we miss him too." Then they both said  "Here mom, does this make you feel better?" and they exposed their belly's & began to rub in delight, just like Larry. We all laughed & it was great.

God bless us all as we make our way in this world w/ them in our hearts, our souls & our thoughts. Hugs~

Deb, don't apoligize for posting a good memory of your Junior.  We all need to post good stories and memories.  Here on this site everyone appreciates the story.  Keep posting. HUGS

hi deb: i am not posting to much on this site i am being busy trying to put on a baby shower for  my daughter in law. i have the hall she is registered now just get some address of people and i would be happy i really do  not keep in touch with george family so i do not know if they will be interested or not if not no big deal more food for me. how are you doing: hope everything is going ok for you you take care of yourself

I hope you are doing okay and coping with the holidays, these are my first ones without him. It is very hard to go through these without him.

Deb, I thank you for being my friend. I miss him so much, like you there are so many first without him. I have a hard dealing with watching him take his last breath it haunts me. When will it get better, I sure don't know if it ever will. When ever I go into a store it is so different by myself, he was always with me. I keep telling myself he's here with me in spirit, but somehow I want to here his voice to let me know he's okay. It's so hard to talk to people who haven't gone through this.

deb: it is so wonderful to hear georges voice on his voice mail where he used to work they never took off the recording thank god. i needed to hear this because this is the only thing i have of his beside some clothes his wallet and the good memories people told me i should get his voice on my phone i think by a memory card i call him at least 2 times a day one in the early morning and then just before i go to bed time things finally are looking up

Thank you Deb. Things have tapered down for me so now I can catch up with myself. God knows why, I have no life anymore. All I can do is share with you and understand. And of course, hugs to you. Hugs are good.

deb thanks i really had a nice birthday and pool party we went to my sons house saturday had a good group of people there. they asked me how i was doing after i told them they left me alone which i thought was great. take care keep in touch