I'm so sorry for your loss. I too lost my daughter to sepsis from a UTI and lung infection. I talked to her by phone on Sunday night and she was gone Monday. She was laughing and in such a good mood on Sunday. I had no idea.
Like you, she was my only daughter, I have three sons all younger than Autumn, my daughter.
This has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me and I've found people who have not lost a child, just don't get it. That is why I'm glad I found this site within a month of losing her. It has helped me a lot.
I also started a journal right after losing Autumn and write to her. That helped some too.
It's been over a year and a half for me and some days are better than others. I try to get up every morning and put on my happy face for my boys, and most times it works.
Hi Denise I too saw your comment in my email but was unable to find it anywhere on this site. It's good that you posted again.
I have no magical words except to say that whatever you feel at any given time will be normal. It's good to get it out anyway you can. It's healthier and better for you and everyone you know to cry, scream, do whatever. I did and it helped me. My husband had gone away a few weeks on business. And a couple friends of my were surprised he left so soon after the farewell.However it turned out to be a blessing in disguise for me and him too. I was able to carry on scream, cry and talk out loud with no one home. Although I still did carry on when he came home but not as loud. Nonetheless, my husband told me he heard me in the middle of the night. Everyone here understands even if circumstances are not entirely the same. Unfortunately, the end result is what has brought all of us here.
I lost my only child/son Joe April 5, 2010 because of an impaired drunk driver. I didn't come here immediately but it helps and is good therapy to connect with others who share the same feelings. We are fortunate that Tami had the know how and courage to set up this site for so many of us who would never touch on each others lives.
Denise, I saw that you had left a comment, it came in my email but when I looked for it I couldn't find it. If you want you can share with me, I lost my 18 year old son 3 years ago and that is why I started this site, I'm here for you and so are the other members, here is my personal email address