hi, Diane, i understand how much you would like to know about your ones who are gone because I feel the same. there were 4 deaths happening to me one after the other - my husband, a son-in-law, a grandson and two months and so ago i lost a son to suicide. yes, it is devastating and for this reason i connect so deeply with people who suffered the loss of loved ones.
i have been searching for sites on the Internet in order to read about life after death and the Spiritism doctrine ( Allan Kardec) on the subject i found very helpful - something new for me though.
we really grow inside through all the experiences, all the happenings we go through and this is what life is all about.
wish you well.