Donna thanks again for the kind words and knowing that i am not alone is a good thing. I sure feel alone when i wake up in the morning and it is the first thing on my mind. and yesterday i was very sad. i know i could have done more.. a lot more and i have to live with that guilt. i thought he was going to be ok. and now ... it is very sad. i know you know how i feel and that is comforting because others just wonder what the heck is wrong with you. want you to move past it. when the pain is so dear and the tears just roll like water off my face it is just beginning. love to you carrie L
Hi donna It is very hard. my son was very vivacious very outgoing invincible personality. He was too young for this to happen to us. I am so sorry for all of us. Your beautiful daughter was so young also. This tragedy happened I am just not going to be the same. As is to be expected. keep writing perhaps it will ease it some.. thanks carrie L
Hi Donna it seems like it is getting worse. And I fear for my health. I can't seem to come to grips with it. I am so very sad and cry at dawn and at dusk. thanks for caring. your daughter is beautiful. never got to cruise with my son think he would have liked it. you are lucky in some ways to have those memories. I have memories of my son. but like you I want more but can't have it. I will get myself together some time. Just a different life now.. carrie L
thanks for writing ... we are all in this sad place and glad the holiday is over. New years will be ok. just not as good as everything has turned out to be. We went skiing yesterday and it kept my mind off it. but today is a different story. we are all just meddling through our lives now. without our beautiful children. I am very distressed about it. can't seem to get past very much of it. don't really know how to change what i am thinking it just comes and comes. Hopefully there will be some peace at some point in my life. but i don't expect it soon. glad you are here to know somehow we still get by.. is the photo your beautiful girls? thanks for caring carrie L
Hi donna hoping you are ok and the whatever. really I don't know what to say. I find myself on this site everymorning because it is comforting to do something with your hands like talking to us... we are in this together and it doesn't and does help nothing really helps .. i am sure we are all different in our upraising and the way we raised our kids. and our families and lifestyles. but we share this crying and pain and what ifs and hows... how could this happen to us. and them our beautiful beautiful children carrie L
Colleen and all the other moms & dads going thru this...I know we have all been brought to this wonderful site for a reason so by all of us sharing our hopes, fear and tears we will somehow heal. I have been reading alot lately just finished "Hello from Heaven and have now started "The Shack". Just want to stop feeling so sad (not good at being sad) never was a sad person befoe this always was happy about living and life but now that has all changed. I'm trying to find answeres that maybe I'm not ready for. I am going tomorrow to the hospital where my daughter passed to talk with them about volunteering as a patient care advocate will just have to see if I can walk into the last place my daughter took her last breath...wish me luck.
I feel exactly as you do, but I do believe that they would not want us to feel this bad, so we do need to find a way to heal, I thinking talking to each other, and just expressing how we feel helps. But, we all need to be positive, and know that we will heal, and not try and put a time limit on our pain. We all grieve in our own way, and it will take longer for some then others, but know this, I have friends that have had losses, you will never ever get over the loss, but the pain will ease for all of us. I will say a prayer for all of my friends on legacy, and hope we all can find some peace, and lessen our pain and tears. Colleen