Than you for the encouragement, when I said six months ago it hit me hard, I came very close to talking my own life and that scared the hell out of me. That's when I knew I needed help and that I couldn't do it alone. No matter how we lose our spouse it's never easy, so I do feel for you too. What made this even harder was every morning before I would go to work I would give her a kiss and tell her I loved her. This particular morning I went to work two hours early, she was still sleeping, so I never got to say anything. I have regretted that everyday. It does help to have someone to talk ( vent ) to that understands. Thank you. Take care and God bless. Greg.

Sorry for the loss of your husband. I never was good at showing emotions or asking for help. I never imagined that I would be widowed at the age of 39. It just isn't right. I thought I could handle it, I kept everything bottled up. If anyone asked how I was doing, the answer was always " fine " when I knew I really wasn't, but that was easier for me, then to explain how I really felt. About six months ago it hit me and it hit me hard. I couldn't take it anymore and I didn't know how to deal with anything anymore. I realized I couldn't do it alone and I needed help. So I started going to church, that helped but I needed more, so now I am asking everybody I can think for help. Thank your for your recommendations. I found a support group that meets the last Thursday of every month, so next week I am going to that. I contacted the pastor yesterday, he's leaving for Florida today and won't be back till next Thursday, he said he will call me when he gets back and set up a meeting. I'm looking forward to that cause I really can't take feeling like this anymore. I even contacted the funeral director that handled the funeral, he gave some names of people to talk too. It was really hard asking people for help after telling them I was fine for so long. But right now I will do anything to find help.