After reading your post I sd a prayer for you & your family. This site can be depressing because of why we are all here & how we are feeling, but more than that it provides comfort and sometimes hope among other things. I believe some people here have become true friends who care about me & how I am doing. As you sd, family & old friends have disappointed many of us. It's a blessing to have a place to come where people know 1st hand what you are dealing with & are going through it too-we are not alone.