I'm doing the same thing you did...crying all the time. I feel lost, and drained. I do have a daughter, but she is not talking to me much..I guess she is doing this "her' way. I wish she realized how much I need her. But, it's something I am not going to push on her.
Sounds like you have come a long way in your year and a half. I'm proud of you! The crying I guess, will always happen to us. I wish we never had to be here, but we can't change it. I don't know why God picked them, and us, but he did.
If you click on my site and go to my blogs you can read how Chad died. It's very disturbing, and I don't understand it actually. He just walked out my door, and that's the last time I saw him.
Keep in touch, and reach out to people here. Add them to your friends list..they will accept. They are all nice and understanding.
Also it helps to get on the chat here sometimes. I say sometimes, because I don't feel like chatting alot of the time. I just want to crawl in a hole and hide. I miss him so much!!!
Sorry for your loss Elizabeth. It really "is" so sad. I am just past month one. Very new to me, but I'm trying so hard to be strong. It's difficult to even get out of bed, but I'm going to go on for my son! That is what HE would want Mom to do. How have you done this for two years? And is it getting better for you? Some say it gets easier to deal with, but the pain is the same. Is that how you feel. I just like to get everyones insight into this tragedy we have to live.