Im so sorry for your loss and this is going to be a very long journey for you My husband took his life in May2014 and im only now coming to terms with it You are going to go through so many emotions that it can be sometimes hard to bare…"
"Blair I lost my husband to suicide last May the past 14 months has been the hardest ive ever had to survive and get to where i am today and there were times i nearly didnt. I myself took an overdose 6 weeks after he died as i too didnt see a…"
"Thanks Ellen yes no matter how they took there life, I have been told it's never about the method it's just a means to an end. Yes I was and still am very shocked by his method and will Never understand. Yes Randy's birthday is this…"
Thank you so much for your message I also felt the same when Kieran hung himself because he was the most gentle person and felt it was also a very violent way to go but i must say i was taken aback in the way your partner took his life.Ive…"
"Hi Ellen, I was reading your story. Actually I thought I was reading my own. My partner of 24 years took his own life 5 months ago on November 3, 2014. He left here one Sunday evening told me he was going to the store and that was the last time I…"
"Hello everyone just reaching out for a little bit of support it is now 10 months since my husband Kieran took his life and for a while now people seem to have forgotten all about him , no one mentions his name wether thats because they dont want to…"
Just thought id check in and share my thoughts Yesterday was the four month anniversary of my husband burial.September was a hard month as it would have been our wedding anniversary and it was also my 50th birthday and a trip to New York was…"
Havent been here for a while but just wanted a bit of support Feeling really low at the moment and having multiple thoughts of suicide every day these thoughts come into my head,i imagine myself hanging or driving into walls without a seatbelt…"
"Hello,well ive made it through another 2 weeks.It will be 10 weeks tomorrow since Kieran passed and this week has been really hard.Still crying and breaking down sometimes the day is just tears and screaming.Im sure it is just grief but now getting…"
"Thank you Greg and Janet for your comments they help me so much
i live in a small town in Ireland and help here is very limited so this site is a lifeline to me especially being able to talk to other people who are going through the same…"
"It is now 8 weeks exactly at this time, today since my husband passed i am still not back working and every day is a struggle.I am seeing a counsellor now which im not sure if its helping as most of the time im just crying through the session.Im…"
"My husband commited suicide on May 16th.He hung himself in the house after i went to bed,i woke up and still do not know why maybe i heard a noise but came downstairs to find him hanging from the bannisters,i couldnt lift him back up to support him…"
Thanks Ellen yes no matter how they took there life, I have been told it's never about the method it's just a means to an end. Yes I was and still am very shocked by his method and will Never understand. Yes Randy's birthday is this Sunday March 15th, he would have been 59. This isn't the club that I am sure either of us thought we would belong too. We weren't married so all of the other ramifications that come along with that are taking its toll also. There are no Common Law, Laws here in Oregon. So everything was taken out of my control and put into the hands of people he wasn't even close too. It's a challenge everyday, i do have wonderful family support, but like you everyone thinks we should be moving on, what they don't realize is we are moving on. Just not as fast as they think we should. We move on because we have to, but for anyone to think that life will go on as before. Well I am sorry that is never going to happen, I can't blame them because it's not their pain. So I will just move as fast or as slow as I want. It's the anger that is the worst for me right now. I go in between I love you and I hate you. I am sure you understand that. I will come back on later hopefully we can chat.
Hi Ellen, I was reading your story. Actually I thought I was reading my own. My partner of 24 years took his own life 5 months ago on November 3, 2014. He left here one Sunday evening told me he was going to the store and that was the last time I saw him. I called his cell phone all night with no response. At 7;42 am Monday morning he called me and told me he was dying, I ask him where he was, he said I would never find him and once again told me he was dying and hung up the phone. Well they did find him the next day, dead in his truck he had stabbed himself 7 times and slit his wrists. This I am really having a struggle with. It seems like such a violent thing to do and he was not a violent man. Yes I also wonder did he really love me at all, could he not have called and told me he loved me instead of what he did. I know the feeling of people just ignoring the fact that he was ever here, I feel like if I mention anything about his death its like they don't want to hear it and I should get over it. I don't think they do it on purpose, It's just that it didn't happen to them so they don't understand the total devastation that we are feeling. So i say to them that I will never get over it, If he had died some other way I could actually have accepted that, but he didn't and that's the legacy they have left for us. I lost my best friend that day, someone I had shared 24 years with. I hope someday I can get his voice out of my head, but for now I am grieving and in pain like you, and I don't see that changing anytime soon. I am sorry for your Loss Ellen. I truly do understand.