And you know what-when you least expect it, he will send you a sign to let you know it is OK-and then that inner-peace will help you see why he couldn't stay here-God had a purpose for that and in time, you will see. I do pray for you during these holidays and a brighter tomorrow is out there-you will see, I promise. I love you and please never feel alone...Erma
Thank you Erma, I know those holidays going to be different but I'm living one-day-at-the-time some days I miss him so much, I wonder if his brother or father really care about what happen to him, my fiancee try to get close to his brother but he never let him, many times he told me that I was the only person who show affection to him... I don't understand why he left me.
Oh, Eva, I am so sorry for your loss. I had a similar thing happen to me in 1993-my fiance committed suicide and his mother blamed me and to this day, I know she still blames me to a point. I do know where his grave is but I don't feel comfortable the few times I have been there. I hope things gets better for you and I do hope you the best and try to get thru these holidays-this will be the worst time on you-I tried to do a friend req. so we can stay in touch-but it won't let me-Good luck and we will talk again. ..Erma
Erma I'm so sorry for your lost, I know how do you feel because I lost my fiance' in July 4th of this year, I love him so much and sometimes I just don't want to live but, I still here because of my family, I can't even go to his funeral because his family don't let me, I don't even know where his grave is... and I still miss him so much. I understand you perfectly!
My husband killed himself 11-29-07. I found him hung on back of his bathroom door. Then my favorite/oldest brother Dan dropped dead 07-16-08 U my father 07-23-08. Write to me if u want barbarajkfeller AT gmail dot com. Never give up, never give in.
Well, tomorrow is my deceased brother-Tom's birthday-how can it be OK for me to smile and be happy on the outside and I want to scream out to the world-HONOR TOM-IT'S HIS BIRTHDAY!! Will I ever mentally recover? Help me!!!
Over the last 2 yrs, I first lost my favorite nephew-Derek due to a home invasion, then 3 weeks later, we lost his mother-Wanda we lost to brain cancer,and exactly 2 yrs later,we lst his dad-Tom, my brother to lung cancer. I was in the home-with the help of Hospice to aid during Wanda's death-then I was with Tom during all his cheotherapy treatments but the worst-and best of it was for Tom to get some justice for his sons murderer. A GUILTY verdict was handed down 2 wks before Tom's death. Losing a family in such a short time burdens my mind to the brink of depression-how do I continue to pretend that it is OK when its not@