Thanks for your comment. That is so true. I was not ready and the entire timeshe was in the hospital, I was in denial she was going to die. Even until the end I would argue with nurses and even doctors that she was going to get well. She had a heart attack and was living with us at the time. She called me from her room she was having chest pains and my spouse and I took her to the hospital. We live in a small town so she had to be transferred to a larger hospital. 2 stents were done but she had a 3rd blockage that would have to be done with open heart surgery when she improved, but she didn't get better and died 3 days later. I never knew I could hurt so much and still can't get rid of all her things. i haven't changed her room much and just go in there and sit sometimes just to feel closer to her. I miss her so. I am 59 but feel like a child still. I am an only child as well and don't have sibling support. I have my husband , 3 kids and 6 grandchildren, but they all live away. I try to see them as often as I can, but they are busy with their kids. I just take each day at a time and hope in time it gets better.