i am truely sorry for your lost, i do have other kids and i should be greatful for that, but every child is special and she was a needy one always, and like you i dont know why i didnt go with my gut , becouse i feel that i should of known, i also do have my husband but sometimes he doesnt understand that i just want to cry and yell, i cant get her out of my head and i think maybe thats kind of normal,thank you for sharing with me some how it helps to know im not that crazy.keep in touch with me. thanks ivon