I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. I can't imagine what it's going to be like two more years from now for me. I lost my only daughter (I have three sons younger than her) on December 6, 2010. In one month it will be a year. It is amazing to me that that much time has already gone by. I do good the majority of the time because I know it makes everyone else uncomfortable to show the way I really feel inside. That is why I'm so glad I found this site and I do have my mom that lost my brother, so she too understands. It helps to come here when I'm really hurting and talk to others and sometimes some of the other parents can say just the right thing at one of those awful moments and can make me feel better, even if it's only briefly.
Once again, I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.