Gia, Right now it is too soon to even imagine it. I do think since you are so young, your honey’s wish for you is to have companionship and maybe one day youll open your heart to that, but for now, just let yourself “heal” from the trauma of loss. I dont think we ever heal from the loss or the missing them. I have a friend, his fiance died 30 yrs ago and he still misses her and it’s family! and we never stop loving them. 
Im fairly young too (age 50) and my beloved was only 64 and hadnt even retired yet and he passed last april, and it’s way to ooooo soon to even imagine. And not to brag but my Barry was a true “one in a million person” plus my best friend in the world! his love healed me from childhood’s pains. I focus now on staying busy to try to soften the pain of the loss. But YOU HONEY, YOU TAKE AS MUCH TIME AS YOU NEED AND DONT EVER FEEL GUILTY! YOUR HONEY IS NOW A GLORIFIED BODY IN HEAVEN AND all he wants is for you to be cared for. He is happy you are here getting support. I know Barry is proud of me for getting support. DANG I MISS HIME!! ITS so painful to even let my mind go there that he is gone! : ( 

signed, Weary and Teary