"Hi Lynne, I am so sorry you are going through this. My name is Ginger and I lost my baby (Johnda) to cancer 8/22/13. We fought her fight for 6 months, and that was so hard. The one thing I can tell you is spend as much time with her as you can. try…"
"Thank you Susan...I thought we were a great couple also. I really miss her companionship..just seeing her everyday. Having her to come home to was something I took for granted. I would like to get that back!! Talk to ya soon! I hope everything is ok…"
"Hi Susan, I think its actually really starting to sink in that Jo is really gone..I have been going back and forth in my heart. But, I dont have those moments anymore where I forget shes gone for a second, then that sinking feeling all over again…"
"Thank you Ginger. I appreciate what you said. ANd yes we will get through this somehow. Even if it's through grandkids. Thank you for connecting with me. I need all the help I can get right now. Kathy and I met on line, believe it or not. I…"
"Hey SusanI can only imagine its gotta be tough to not have anyone in her family to talk to. I can understand (I guess) if you dont believe in out life style, but to be so cruel to someone who loved there daughter so much..I dont understand. We will…"
"Yep, confirmation sucks. For me I just wish I had someone to talk to from her family who knew her well, but I don't. So it's just me in my head. Sometimes my head is crazy. By the way, your partner was beautiful. I think you said that pic…"
"Hi Susan..good to hear from you again. Im sorry you had a bad week, it really stinks doesnt it. Friends are great. But there is so much alone time and its hard to stay out of your head or heart. I still have daily revelations that confirm im not…"
"Hello Susan..yea I enjoy seeing the grandkids..they miss there MiMa so much, the youngest was crying the other nite, thats hard to see. Today was kinda emotional...one of those days where everything reminds me of Jo..I miss her so much. Talk to you…"
"Hi Ginger. Glad to hear you had a better day this weekend. And yes grandkids are wonderful. My grandson has helped me so much these days, just to see him every day when I get home and spend time with him. He loved my Kathy so much, probably more…"
"Hi Susan, arent grandkids great little distractions...her daughter and grandkids came by this evening. We had a cookout and talked about how bad this all sucks!!!!! I actually let her daughter have some of her clothes and personal things..it…"
Thank you Ginger. I appreciate what you said. ANd yes we will get through this somehow. Even if it's through grandkids. Thank you for connecting with me. I need all the help I can get right now. Kathy and I met on line, believe it or not. I never thought that I'd find the love of my life on line though. I am so thankful I had her but.......so sad she is gone. I think I might change my profile pic to me and her if I can find one on this computer...lol. Take care. Susan
Yep, confirmation sucks. For me I just wish I had someone to talk to from her family who knew her well, but I don't. So it's just me in my head. Sometimes my head is crazy. By the way, your partner was beautiful. I think you said that pic was of her. Very pretty lady. I wish you well and hope we are able to get through this at some point.
How are things? Hope you are doing better than you were earlier in the week. Like you I have good and bad. This weekend not so good. So many tears. Need to keep busy but there are down times where the pain just gets to me. Although had a nice Friday night with some dear friends. We laughed and cried together. Late night for me though, not used to that at my age.....lol. Take care. Susan
Hi Ginger. Glad to hear you had a better day this weekend. And yes grandkids are wonderful. My grandson has helped me so much these days, just to see him every day when I get home and spend time with him. He loved my Kathy so much, probably more than me....lol.
I'd like to friend you but I don't know how??? Duh....I feel so silly.
Good Morning Ginger - my Kathy fell down a flight of stairs at work and died. Apparently she was heading to the bathroom at the time. An autopsy was done to see if something happened prior to that like a heart attack, stroke, aneurysm or something like that. No results yet, or at least I haven't heard anything. She left one morning for work and I got the call that afternoon. It was and still is a nightmare. I'm hoping someone from the family will let me know the results. I did get to go to the hospital and see her one last time though. That was before the family threw me away. I live in NJ and she lived in CT, but I practically lived there. I was job hunting and slowly moving in. Needless to say I've brought everything back to NJ right after the services. By the way, the picture you see is my grandson. He has been my savior through all of this and I look forward to the birth of my granddaughter in January. Talk to you soon Susan
Ginger - forgive me for not acknowledging your loss also. I am so sorry. Yes, the crying becomes a little less as days go by but then sometimes there are those "waterfall" days. I too wonder what the reason was for this. They say everything happens for a reason. Sometimes that's hard to believe. I spend my entire life finding the one for me and to be taken away so soon just doesn't make sense to me. I hope some day it will make some sense to me. Would love to keep in touch and see how you are doing as time goes on. Sound good?
Thank you Ginger. Kathy and I were only together 2 and a half years but that doesn't matter. What matters is the love and respect we had for each other. After she passed her family threw me out of her house as though I never existed. That just added to the pain. I'm trying to move forward and that is why I joined this so I can share and learn from others.