Don't feel bad about being angry, I know I went from feeling Love to anger than shame for being angry. Everyone goes through it, as Deb said your emotions will jump all over the place nothing orderly about grief. My wife Diane…"
"ToddI too took a small break from posting after the Holidays also. Thank You for the Shout Out for making it through the first Anniversary. It's funny the word Anniversary used to have a positive vibe, now it's a negative vibe to do with…"
Sounds like you did the best you could for Valentines Day. It's such a short time for you since the passing of your Husband, I'm sure everything seems unreal and crazy. I understand what you mean it doesn't feel right.…"
That's exactly the way I feel was I really Married 13 years or have I been single the whole time and dreamed about being Married to Diane. Not that i'm forgetting her I think it's just the way the mind handles it. We…"
"Thanks to all the people that offered support on the 1 year anniversary of Diane's death. It still amazes me how sometimes it seems a short time since I have seen her, and other times seems like forever like a distant memory. When you are…"
It doesn't matter how long you were together, me and Diane were a blind date set up by a friend. I avoided it for a while, we set up a double date half way through the night I thought to myself I don't want to screw this up we…"
Sorry for your loss, it will be a year on the 29th of this month since my wife passed away. Unfortunately everything you are feeling is normal, and to have all these feelings jump all over in one day or an hour happens. You are in raw…"
"Hello Harold: Learning how to use this website! Yes I live in Michigan, at my mailing address is Niles. I go home Sunday, I've been in Florida visiting my son and his family. Knowing I could move anywhere I want, I think…"
I see you live in Michigan, I live in Saginaw been through Niles. On the internet distance doesn't mean much. Some people on here in Canada, other Countries all over the place. Nothing makes sense about life now, Who am I, what am I…"
"Thank you Harold. I know that grieving is something that isn't spoken about and not understood until it happens. My husband and I used to visit in the living room each morning and he'd say, "you know, one of us will be…"
Sorry for the loss of your Mother and your Husband in so short of time. The 29th of this month will be a year since my Wife died. There are so many emotions you go through sometimes you think your crazy. Your not we all go through so many…"
I still miss and think of Diane everyday probably always will. Don't worry about moving on so soon, Dale was your Life you don't put that aside so easy. I would suggest you allow yourself to grieve, it hurts like hell but…"
Sorry you have to go through the Anniversary no one wants. It's almost a year, at times it seems like yesterday other times, long time ago. Me and Diane were set up by friend at work, we always messed with each other. Finally his wife…"
The last part of your post, struck home with me. I had to read it a couple of times, sums everything up in a couple of sentences.
I know that we are all in the same boat. So although it doesn't make me feel any better,…"
Hello Harold: Learning how to use this website! Yes I live in Michigan, at my mailing address is Niles. I go home Sunday, I've been in Florida visiting my son and his family. Knowing I could move anywhere I want, I think anywhere out of the cold and snow would be great. I have a lot to deal with when I get home. Downsizing is one of them, after taxes and end of year work. I know it will be hard to walk into my "our" home again but I have to face it. It seems like the days are going so slowly and that's such a change from how fast I thought it was going. I fade in and out of my new reality. Being out of my familiar territory with it's memories has helped but life goes on.
Thank you Harold. I know that grieving is something that isn't spoken about and not understood until it happens. My husband and I used to visit in the living room each morning and he'd say, "you know, one of us will be left." Saying it and reality are two different things. I feel like my life exploded the day he died. It's coming back together,slowly. I think this website will be assuring and helpful.
Harold, I love your ornament, where did you get it? I miss David so much but always feel better after visiting this page. I feel reassurred I am not losing my mind. Yesterday was 20 months for me and there are still days that my grief overwhelms me. I don't write much but appreciate every sentiment written. I hope you have a good holiday season.
Thank you Harold. The only thing that consoles me is I believe in God. I think He saved them all. God brought them Home before worse things could happen to them. As much as I miss them, I think God saved them! I know we'll be reunited!
Aww Harold iam so very sorry for your loss, My husband was diagnosed with glioblastoma tumor, it is a very aggressive brain cancer with no cure, some people have live at the most for 5 years, but Bobs grew quickly, within 2 weeks he was paralyzed, 4 weeks he was swollen his who,e body wasn't eating, they feed him threw tubes, 6 weeks his kidneys failed and he went on Dialysis, he started having seizures, 10 weeks to the day of his diagnoses I lost him, I was soo hoping we could fight this and keep him alive for the max of 5 years, but it was not to be, now iam alone and missing him more then I could have ever imagine,I can't see this deep pain and sorrow ever going away, he was my everything. Thankyou mary
Hi Harold, Thankyou for your very kind words, so very sorry for your loss, very over whelming, I was reading some of your comments, my husband was 18 yrs older then me, I had 22 years with him, 23 in sept. He was so very healthy, and this was such a shock. Love mary
Thanks so much for the warm welcome. I know it's doing to be a long hard row to hoe, but no one can do it for me. It's been two years yet it feels like yesterday. I awake each day praying it was only a dream I know it's not, just wishful thinking. He was real.
I agree. I find it impossible to believe it will ever get better. When people ask that dreaded question "how are you doing", I'll tell some of them I'm in a living hell. I've also told Ken our roles have reversed since his passing, before I had to watch him suffer and now he has to watch me suffer. I'm going to hold on to hope though that eventually, probably some day long in the future, I'll be able to see the light (either light will do)
Harold, I feel as you do with the deep, never ending grief. I'm only 2 weeks ahead of you, my husband passed on 1/13/16. I contacted my doctor last week because I needed something to help. Mornings for me are the worst. I'm so full of anxiety but still have to get up to go to work. With my husband here, I had strength to do anything. However sick he was, I could handle it, take care of him, go to work etc. I got my strength from him. Without him, I panic over everything so afraid of what the future will hold that I'll have to deal with solo. The anti-anxiety meds do help a bit. I can be calmer and focus better at work but it doesn't stop me from crying for him every day, several times a day. I pray we both find piece although I believe we're a long way from that right now.