Jackie I am so sorry you have lost your daughter. I have lost my son. And I cry because it hurts My husband also said what is wrong with you. ( he is not my sons father ) I got very upset. He should know and I have news for him It is not going away. I don't think anyone has the pain a mother has when she has raised the child Loved the child so deeply and wanted nothing but the best for the child. And the child loves her. Like no other... Carrie L
Hi Jacki, Happy New Year To You, I'm sorry I didn't get back to you sooner, but you do know the way things go. I want to thank you so much for acknowleging my having to put Rich's dog, Casey down 3 days before Christmas. She was a beautiful Springer Spaniel. I believed that she wanted to be with Rich for X-mas, and he wanted her with him. Not many people feel the way I do about their dogs. I promised Rich if anything happened to him I'd take care of his girls and love them. He also had, a 6 mo. old springer puppy when he died. Now I have two, 2 year old springers. Ours is black and white, her name is Lexie, and Rich's is liver and white, her name is Bailey. We do miss Casey alot too.
How were the holidays for you? I think that God answered my prayers, however I'm feeling a little confused. I feel like I crossed over another mountain
because even though I miss Rich with all my heart
it seems like I have accepted him being with God, and I know he's ok. It's kind of confusing in my head.
If you want to write directly to me I'd like that, my e-mail is firstname.lastname@example.org. in subject please put Legacy so I know it's not junk mail, God be with you
Jackie, Love Janie
Hi Jackie, I am so sorry to hear about your loss of Brandi, i lost my Son Joey on 06-22-09 in a motorcycle accident. I too have lost my faith at times, I just so want to believe that i will be with him again, and that is what I am told, but I have to wait my time, so that is what I do, I have lost my happy go lucky self too, I like you just dont know what to do, i am happy for a place like this where we can all talk about our losses, we have all been throught the same pain and can help eachother, I would never tell anyone how they should feel because we all grieve differently but at least if we read these posts we can see that we arent going crazy.
i hold you in my heart
Hi my name is Billie, I lost my daughter Savanna in 05 in a house fire along with my husband Brad. I was able to get my oldest daughter out but when I went looking for savanna I could not find her. I have lived with this for a very long time. Noone can say they know how you feel. To loose a child in any way is the most indescribable pain anyone can know. Mostly because you have to learn to go on and yet your body aches to hold your child. I did not have a husban to deal with through this so I am not sure how that works but it has been 4 years now and I am better but at the time I felt like an empty shell. People tell me about that time and I dont remember much of it because I was so out of it. I could go on but i wont. Lets just say that I am better and without my faith in god i dont where I would be.
It's me again. Having a hard time tonight and just needed to let some of my pain out. Once again, my husband walked away after asking me "what on earth is wrong with you?" Yet I was standing there holding my Brandi's picture dusting it, crying my heart out. How could he not know instinctively what was wrong. I think he did but didn't want to hear it or deal with it. As I was dusting the photo I could feel her all over again and smell her. It was so real and caused me to start crying cause I know I will never again get to be with her here on this earth again. The finality of it is what is hard to handle and cope with. I just never thought of living my life without her in it after the day she was born. Yet here I am doing just that. Life is so cruel. Thanks again for letting me sound off. Hope you are doing well. I keep you in my prayers even though I am not sure about my faith, I still pray and most times believe that our prayers will be answered. That is a work in progress for me, my faith. Take care!
even if i you did have more children they never take the place of the one we lost. some how they were just special,even though i love my other kids they are not Justin and will never be. he was my hugger the won that says i love you and those eyes. oh how lost we are. thank you for writing back i'm not too good on this computer matbe i will get better. take care and know someone in texas is thinging of you and your great loss. Justins mom Pam
Jackie thank you for writing me back. At least I know I have someone to understand. And maybe one day we can live our life again,for now i'm just here going through the motins.Oh i how I wish my family would understand,it would help for them to rember there brother and his dad to say his name. but they say people grieve in differt ways,but he cant just be like he didn't exsist he was here and alays be here in my heart and I will talk about him no matter what. It just what we need to do,they were our babys no matter what age. pam justns mom
JACKIE I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL TODAY ITS BEEN 11 MONTHS SINCE MY SON HAS PASSED AWAY,AND A TEAR AND 4 MONTH SINCE MY MOM. I USE TO WATCH ALOT OF CHURCH AND DO ALOT OF PRAYING SOME WAY I'M MAD ITS LIKE I CANT PRAY ANY MORE ARE THE LORD DONT HERE ME EVEN THOUGH I BELIEVE IN THE LORD. I JUST MISS MY BABY EVEN THOUGH HE WAS 31 OH HOW I JUST GIVE AND GET A GREAT BIG HUG .NO ONE CAN TAKE OUR CHILDRENS PLACE EVEN THOUGH I HAVE 2 MORE I HAVE TO KEEP GOING,AND THERE ARE DAYS I DONT WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE ARE SEE ANYONE. YOU HANG IN THERE AS HARD AS IT IS,WE CAN ONLY TAKE IT A DAY AT A TIME THATS WHAT THEY SAY. JUSTINS MOM PAM