Dear Jacky, Hope that this evening is finding you  feeling better as far as your broncistis goes.  I have been working very hard on adjusting to my new life.  You know none of us wanted to have a life apart from our spouse, but when our time is up here on earth it is just up. Yesterday my husbands ashes arrived at my son's home where I now live.  Everyone said it was too dangerous for me to stay where I was so I had to leave my job, my little home, and allot of my stuff to move.  I have been working on planning a memorial service for my husband.  Mostly I have nothing to do so I just sit and think allot too.  I miss my husband allot but when I think about how bravely he faced his own death, i just have to be strong to honor that memory.  But I check this website everyday so if you want to post something i will respond if I catch it.  Remember we are never alone, God is just a prayer away.  You try to get a good nights sleep.  My prayers will be with you. Janice