Hello Jaclyn...my name is Duane, but I use middle name(Charley) most of the time. I lost my wife back in April to heart problems. But before that I was with a lady who I totally fell in love with and never could forget. She had a little girl who became like my own, and to this day I miss her. Your situation with your husband made me think of her. I think I married my wife because I just gave up on love when the other one broke it off. She had had a personal tragedy with a family member and it just changed her. Anyway, thanks for listening, and I hope that you will trust the Lord, be thankful, and be a blessing to others. Charley