I am with you Jacquelyn. I can also write a long, long story of my son's wonderful life journey. He was 33 when God felt his mission on earth had finished. Since January 1st of this year, I have started to look at his pictures and to say "Thank you God" for the 33 years you loaned him to me. Thanks for all his earthly accomplishments. Thank you for the beautiful legacy. Thanks for he is not suffering from the cancer anymore. Chemo treatments, surgeries, radiation, studies, ICU stays are over. He'll wake up renewed and handsome as he was. He will have (I am sure) in his arms his baby brother that preceeded him in death in 1971. I can't wait. My only daughter left who is almost 37 is so angry because of me and her father's divorce 3 years prior to Oscar's death. She is even angrier after Oscar's passing that she has been taking it out on me. Who else than her mother to do this? I will love her unconditionally though I no longer put up or expose myself to any cruel or agressive treatment from her part. None the less, it's double grief because I have not only lost my son and best friend but my daughter too. Oh, and she punishes me by not allowing me to see the sunshine of my life which are my grandchildren. Oh well, I focus on myself and of what Oscar would want for me to feel and be. Yes, he would agree at me not allowing his sister to hurt me. Be of good courage, you are not alone on this grief journey. Those of us that have experienced the same know that we will never forget our children that left before us, but we will feel a little better as time passes. Keep the faith in yourself that God knows you will handle it with HIS help. Always,
Martha

Dear Jacquelyn,
I was so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious son. I just wanted to let you know that Isaiah 40:31 is engraved on my 21 year old son's tombstone. I lost him Nov. 29, 2009--almost a year now. Peace be with you.
Ann