Hello, I just lost my best friend on September 2, 2011.  We lived together for more than ten years.  He was was partner and truly my soul mate.  My love for him deepened as his health worsened.  He had dementia.  Recently he would not even talk.  I am not certain he understood.  I just told evey time I visited him in the nursing home that I loved him and I miss him.  I hope he could understand that.  I miss him very much.  I recently realized that God does not want me to have a spirit of pain and weakness, but one of power and strength.  This realization has helped me immensely because previously I was not certain I wanted to continue to live.  I thought that since he was dead, I should be so also.  God wants me to overcome my desperation.  I appreciate your support, I have not found a grief support group in person as yet.  Thanks.