Dear Janette: I can feel your pain, because everyday to me is like it only happened, The pain is always there. I find myself crying over little things that we used to do, and my heart dies all over again. He was my only child I was never blessed with another, so it is very hard to deal with his loss. There are times when I ask myself why him, he left behind two children and a wife a boy who is now 16 and a girl who is 10, he has just lately become a grandfather of also a boy and a girl. His son and his girlfriend gave him two beautiful grandkids, whom I know if he was here he would have gone wild over his babies. My son was a large part of my life, and know without him my world seems so lonely to me the day my son took his journey my heart and my being went with him. I just live day by day because without him, I don't know what to do. So I know and feel your pain and your loss. take care and thank you for your kind words. May God Bless and Watch over You and Yours.