Since i did better last year with christmas i thought id would be easier each passing year. It isnt. It sucks. My emotions flow. this year was not pleasant for weeks. COVD really didnt help matters. I dont miss the chaos of my brother drinking at xmas, but god i miss him. I dont know if i ever wont. Life has gone on. Im well, life is beautiful. this part seems so hard.  I get to help others not end up like my brother so that is a blessing in itself. Happy 2021 All

My bother mike would have been 40 today. its almost been 8 years since he died. its still so hard. this bday is a little harder. maybe because he didn't see 40. i still so hard. less gut wrenching, but so hard. i miss my brother

After 7 years and what still feels like a long road my dad dropped new information on me today about my brothers death. He let me know that he had his eyes roll back to white while conscious 2 days before he had his seizure . 2 days later he died from seizure. He didn't take him to the hospital the first time. He is now telling me this 7 years later. Neither of my parents told me about this . I could have maybe helped. While I know there is no turning back I feel so many strong emotions…

6th Christmas without Mike.all mo the every December I'm just on a rollercoaster of emotions.my brother has been visiting my 2 year old daughter. It's incredible and heart warming. Always miss Mike.