Well last month was the 6 year passing anniversary of my brother Mike.  I've  learned a lot about grief on this journey. I do know for sure that time really has not made any of this any better.  It may have been 6 years, but the pain on some days is so Raw and so real it still takes me a minute to ground myself and be okay.  I quoted on Feb 10/2018 "that my love for you lives in my grief for you" I think is true for me.  Overall I am still so grateful for having mike in my life for 32…

Well next month it will be 5 years since my brother passed away from alcoholism at 32 years old.  It feels crazy that amount time has passed... I think I may have been living in a bubble the first 2 or 3 years just managing daily life and trying to get through.  Other people share that it gets easier ..... I cant say I agree.  Although I moved on with life and have a great life, it has not remotely made a difference in the amount of pain I feel, or the fact that he inst coming back.  It…

Tomorrow marks 4 years since my 32 yr old brother passed away from alcoholism. I vividy recall some days especially around now his body that day.. its etched in my mind.  I have lived a full life and carried on. My heart and soul have not been so fast. 4 years and the pain is still like yesterday .  I miss him so much. What is killing me is that while my family gathers tomorrow my other sibling always chooses to not take part in any family gatherings. He makes excuses to not come. It breaks…

Well this is my 3rd Christmas now without my brother. have to say that its no way easier than the 1st. it is so clear that he is missing. I miss him do much. Life goes on, but the loss is real like yesterday. This time of year sucks. For all of you out there feeling the way I do I send light your way.