My bother mike would have been 40 today. its almost been 8 years since he died. its still so hard. this bday is a little harder. maybe because he didn't see 40. i still so hard. less gut wrenching, but so hard. i miss my brother

After 7 years and what still feels like a long road my dad dropped new information on me today about my brothers death. He let me know that he had his eyes roll back to white while conscious 2 days before he had his seizure . 2 days later he died from seizure. He didn't take him to the hospital the first time. He is now telling me this 7 years later. Neither of my parents told me about this . I could have maybe helped. While I know there is no turning back I feel so many strong emotions…

6th Christmas without Mike.all mo the every December I'm just on a rollercoaster of emotions.my brother has been visiting my 2 year old daughter. It's incredible and heart warming. Always miss Mike.

Well last month was the 6 year passing anniversary of my brother Mike.  I've  learned a lot about grief on this journey. I do know for sure that time really has not made any of this any better.  It may have been 6 years, but the pain on some days is so Raw and so real it still takes me a minute to ground myself and be okay.  I quoted on Feb 10/2018 "that my love for you lives in my grief for you" I think is true for me.  Overall I am still so grateful for having mike in my life for 32…