Jenny Ruselowski
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  • Taylor, Mi
  • United States
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My sweet son John

My son was 17 when he passed. He had kidney and bladder problems all his life. He was always in and out of the hospital for infections. he was stable and did not need a transplant yet. That would not have been for years. he started smoking cigerettes and weed. I was always grounding him for that it seemed to do no good. The last week he was alive we had a few fights about him skipping school and smoking weed. i wanted better for him. he went to school one day and when he came home he said he wanted to go to sleep. he did this often when he did not feel good but he never said he was sick. So I thought maybe he stayed up to late the night before. I went in to talk to him that night and he had a hard time waking up to talk to me. So I let him sleep. I had a feeling something was wrong with him but did nothing about it. I feel really guilty for this. I dont think he did it on purpose. he had such a love of life. He was great with kids specially his little brother. He could make me laugh even when i was mad at him. I miss him so much it hurts. I have days where i dont want to do anything or get out of bed but i do becuase i have 2 other boys i have to take care of. John was such a great person he just feel prey to peer pressure. I wish I could go back in time and take him to the hospital. I am going to a thrapist to help me cope but it doesnt last long.

if anyone wants to look me up on facebook or myspace i get on facebook often and will im if you want to. just look for Jenny Ruselowski I think i am the only one.

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At 8:36pm on January 24, 2011, sue ferrante said…
havent heard from you---today my son has been gone 15 years--sometimes I feel like he wasnt even born, and wonder what he looks like ---carlos was 23 when he died and nowhes 38 hard to believe but to me he will always be 23
At 9:54pm on January 4, 2011, sue ferrante said…
 jenny my name is SUE FERRANTE from wyandotte its been a long time since I have been on here I lost a son his name is CARLOS he was 23 JAN 24 he will be gone 15 years and it doesnt seem like it its like "w here has the time  gone but I am hanging in there hope your doing good as can be  expected you live close
At 6:58am on February 28, 2010, Roberto Corona said…

At 6:58am on February 28, 2010, Roberto Corona said…
Hi Jenny, I was having a terrible day on Friday at work all by myself,really hard. I am in Public Relations and had comments from customers on the phone and live. They can sense it in voice and apperance. **The best thing that happened in all recent times is that out of desperacy I went to John Edward, I had many difficulties in getteing there then they did not accept credit card, the only ATM ih the building did not work. had to get my car croos the road to another hotel, pull the cash from the ATM, came back and we finally enetered 25 minuets late. Had seating way in the back far, last 3 rows. Despite all this I was lucky enought to be chosen and Jasmin came to us. All very positive comments and comments and those only her would know, Incredible stuff. I feel much lighter in every aspect and recomend you at least visit his website at www.johnedward.net ,,, I was left totally amazed and now have proof positive that they do in fact communicate. I wish you would make it to one of his functions when you can. Your whole outlokk will be changed. I feel very lucky. *I would love to be your friend and you are always welcomed to e-mail me directly at rcorona99@bellsouth.net. I also am on Facebook but, not so frequently. Also you can look her on Legacy, Jasmin Ivonne Corona 9/17/09, Miami Herald. Good Luck to you on this journey and we are all fighting a very hard battle but, remember I am on your team, only wishing I could help you more. Roberto.
At 6:27am on February 28, 2010, Roberto Corona said…

At 8:17pm on February 26, 2010, Linda Kohls said…
Thank you- it is a pain in the heart that is horrible. I think if I feel really terrible today maybe tomorrow I will feel a little better. I go through the days in a daze.I keep thinking he will come in the door or call and say "How are you,Mom?" I don't want to go on but I have another son who is 42 and two grandchildren. You'd think that would make me happy but my heart just aches. I is amazing to read how much heartache people are going through. I am tring to look at one day at a time. thank you for responding. Linda Kohls
At 9:18pm on February 25, 2010, Roberto Corona said…
I also tried adding somebody but, it does not work for either. I cant mu daughter pic downloaded either.
Let me know if you get it. Take Care.
At 11:01am on February 25, 2010, Roberto Corona said…
Hi Jenny, when you have 3 or 4 kids like we do it is really impossible. We are not Super People or Bionic. We do the best we can and yes, there's always something that stays in the back of your head about one of them or the other as dedicated as we may be as parents. I see we are similar because we beat ourselves up over issues of could have, would have, Etc. I just dont want you to beat yourself up too much and who's to say it would not have happened anyway, no matter what we did ? My prayers and thoughts are really with you and I think you should know I read your story about John at least 5 times last night and shed some tears. What a hard battle we have ahead of us ! We will help each other thrugh Jenny, I'll be here; Robert.
At 6:27pm on February 24, 2010, Roberto Corona said…
Jenny thanks for your comments. What you wrote is totally correct and I am talking to my wife more and more each day. She understands and is also there for me although I only started opening up within the last week or so. I read what you wrote herein about John and I am so sorry for your loss. I guess it does not matter much if it's sudden or expected, illness or accident or whichever way. We are in the same boat when we loose one of our kids. I think you did what any of us would of done. I cant tell you how many times among our 4 kids we put one or more of them to bed with that feeling in the back of our minds but, just continued about our business. I pray for John and for you. My kids are all grown up now but, you have younger ones depending and counting on you. I hope you will overcome, God Bless. Robert.
At 3:25pm on February 24, 2010, Gregorysmom said…
Jenny I understand what you are saying about John coming to you I prayed for Gregory to come to me and it wasnt right away but he did and oh what a blessing it was we held hands and he told me he was ok and he had a smile on his face and he was sooooooo handsome , So yes he will come
((((hug))))
Pamela
oh I got a place a 3 br condo !!! thank you Jesus
 
 
 

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