"I just read your letter to me. Thank you, you made me feel better. Last night i had a dream Jimmy and I were fighting. It was sooo real, I wanted to cry my eyes out but with the other 3 little one's i could not. Like most on this site and…"
DEAR JIM MILLER ; I AM SORRY FOR THE LOSS OF YOUR SON - FOR WE LOST OUR RYAN AGE 31, 8/26/2009 TO APPARENT SUICIDE. WE HAVE BEEN DEVASTATED EVER SINCE & SO HAVE HIS SIBLINGS & MANY RELATIVES, BUT WE HAVE TO KEEP GOING ON THO WE DON'T FEEL LIKE IT .I TOO WANTED TO "KNOW IF HE WAS HAPPY & AT PEACE ." I KEPT ASKING GOD TO PLEASE LET ME SEE RYAN HAPPY- AFTER ABT 4-5 MOS.AFTER HIS PASSING AWAY GOD GAVE ME A DREAM/ VISION- CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT TO & RYAN CAME TO ME IN THE NITE- STANDING AT MY RITE SHOULDER & SPOKE TO ME & SAID "HEY MOM"IN A HAPPY JUBILLANT VOICE - HE LOOKED SO PEACEFUL & EVEN YOUNGER THAN HE ACTUALLY WAS & SOUNDED SO GOOD & HAPPY THAT I KNEW WIYHOUT A DOUBT THAT MY RYAN IS WITH THE LORD & AT PEACE & HAPPY - SO GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER - & LET ME "SEE HIM HAPPY"!!!! I DID NOT KNO THE LORD WUD ACTUALLY DO THAT FOR ME BUT I SURE KEPT ASKING THE LORD TO DO THAT FOR ME & HE REALLY DID . THE BIBLE TELLS US THAT GOD WILL GIVE US THE DESIRES OF OUR HEARTS- TO LET OUR WANTS BE KNOWN TO HIM - IT HAS MEANT SOOO MUCH TO ME THAT I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ABT LOSING RYAN- THO THE PAIN OF LOSING HIM IS STILL WITH ME - BUT I KNO W/OUT A DOUBT THAT HE IS AT PEACE & HAPPY. GOD WILL ANSWER YOUR PRAYERS TOO- PROB IN A MUCH DIFFERENT WAY THAN HE DID MINE- BUT HE WILL HEAR YOUR REQUEST & WILL BLESS YOU W/ AN ANSWER - IN HIS TIME & HIS WAY - & GOD WILL DO THE SAME FOR ANYONE WHEN YOU ASK IN FAITH - FOR HE IS NO RESPECTOR OF PERSONS !!! I STILL DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THIS HAPPENED BUT I KNO THAT GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL & THERE MUST HAVE BEEN A REASON. I PRAY FOR ALL US GRIEVING PARENTS FOR THERE CANNOT BE ANY WORSE PAIN THAN THIS ! GOD HELP & BLESS ALL OF YOU ! ...RYANS MOM -DEL
DEAR JIM, WHEN MY SON DIED,THE EXACT SAME THOUGHTS PRAYED ON MY MIND, OVER AND OVER AGAIN.I NEEDED TO NO WHERE HE WAS,WAS HE O'K,AND WHY WAS I NOT ABLE TO SAY GOOD-BYE.I WAS ANGRY THAT, AS HIS MOTHER,THIS IS THE WAY OUR CHILDRENS LIVES END.JUST SEEMED WRONG.NOT TO BE WITH HIM, WHEN HE DIED.THAT WAS MARCH,23RD,2008.EASTER SUNDAY.I'M SORRY FOR THE LOSS OF YOUR SON,I HOPE GOD'S SERENITY AND PEACE BE WITH YOU SOON, AND ALWAYS.PAUL'S MOM,GERI
im sorry for your loss. my son was 13 when he was in a fatal car accident, would have been 14 january 18 he passed sept 5, 2009. he too was my best friend. i cant promise you much Jim but i can promise you are not alone and i am 1000% sure that our children are having the time of their lives, we are the ones suffering, they dont feel sadness or pain, only love. they will wait for us because time to them is like a blink of an eye, there is no concept of time in heaven only for us, so when they see us crying they think why is my mom/dad crying im going to see them soon and just wait till i can show them this beautiful place we get to live in forever together. we are all here because we hurt, you can say whatever you want here and noone holds it against you, My prayers are with you.
Jim, I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how fresh the pain is for you. I lost my 32 year old son on 2/14/10. This has been the hardest four weeks of my life. There are moments I feel like I just can't do this, but I have a great support group and I hope you have the same. The people in this group are fantastic and so supportive. Keep coming here and posting your feelings. Hugs to you and your family.