My mom was taken from us on Jan. 12th of this year 2010. Her heart stopped due to her Dr. giving her to medications at to high of dosses. I think about the morning after she was taken into the ICU becuase the paramedics gave her CPR for 15 mins and were able to get her heart started again, I was sitting next to her bed looking at her with a tub down her throat and machines everywhere hooked up to her. The ICU Dr. was asking me what happened... as I'm telling him about her health the past few days he asks me about her meds.. When I started telling him about them he had a look of disbelief all over his face... He said no no that does not make sense.. your mom is over weight,66 yrs old and a diabetic.. there is no way she could be on all of that on top of her diabetic meds..He kept probbing and asking me different ways almost the same thing trying to get a different answer.. I have grown such a hate and fear of hospital's now that I dont think I will ever go into one for any reason. At first we had hopes even when they told us that she did not get oxygen to her brain for 15mins and even if she did come out of the coma she would not have a normal life ..of couse myself and my step dad tried not to hear that ..After 4 days of tests that clearly showed she had almost 0% brain waves we decided that we would take her off life support. Almost her entire family which is very big (6 sisters, 5 brothers) came to pray and see her god knows how many nieces and nefews. The ICU Dr. Patel which will always be thought of kindly believed that she would start breathing on her on becuase she had one of the strongest hearts he had seen. Well he was right and we were so thankfull for that because HOSPIS which is the best thing ever, set up a 24hr nurse and everything needed to take care of her medical needs back at her home in her bedroom. They were all so great and made the the next two days of her life so wonderful !! Dr. Patel gave her moriphene at the highest level to make sure she was going to be in the most comfort, I spent the next almost two days sleeping on the coach and sitting with her along with my step dad and of course all of our family that would not leave her side.. She passed in the evening on Jan. 12th which is a memory I almost wish I could take away but at the same time would not want to. We had her big t.v. on with her favorite music playing the entire time and if your reading this mom I hope that made you happy and made you feel safe. It seems just like yesterday she was taking me school clothes shopping which was really along time ago considering Im 38 now. One thing that makes me feel great is knowing that a few months before she was taken from us one of her sisters, my auntie Nancy was able to get her to start reading a little bit of the bible and she found god so now when I talk to her out load and in my thoughts I feel safe that she is with him and happy again. MOMMMMAA I miss you and love you with all my heart !!




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